Say what?!?! (Part 2)

So, if you haven't, please read Jeff's beautiful blog that I posted yesterday. (Here).

This is the part two to the story. Yes, I am going there, no I don't care.

So, Jeff is hurting, missing his boys, in need of support, so someone related to him, and younger, sees one line in his blog, and decides to ignore the pain in the rest. The line that was noticed? "I have family that barely speaks to me...."

H's response to the blog.

Titled - "a family member that never speaks to you, speaking to you…"

"ok. i feel the need to respond to a line you had in your blog. I know that this particular line has really nothing to do with the subject of the blog...but this line hit me. When you say you have a family that barely talks to you. I'm guessing you are referring to us. well, in response......it's kinda funny you feel that way, cuz you know what...i have a brother that never speaks to me.

you know, i remember a time, when you first moved to vermont, you would email me and im me to ask me how school was and stuff. and i never get those anymore....but i also know you're busy. But I never spoke out and complained about you never speaking to me...i guess it's something called understanding.

did you ever stop to think that we all have our own problems too. that we have been thru shit that you don't even know about. maybe you should stop to think about that...instead of being in your own little world complaining that your family doesn't speak to you.

and in response to something mom told me (an example of the whole "i have a brother that never speaks to me thing"), and i'm going to say this as gently as i can...but usually my tone doesn't come thru well when it comes to things, so i'm just telling you that i'm saying this as kindly and as unhurtful as i can..i'm NOT trying to pick a fight..i'm just venting my feelings. i read liams blog, i think of him always, i post pics of him on myspace (but apparently that to was a no no...but no one tells me till afterwards, only leaving me to feel like shit). i don't know what the heck i am allowed to do anymore, so from now on, just flat tell me...and stop venting thru mom...please.

now i am not stupid, and i know ppl will be pissy with me now, because you know, i am the only one that seems to speak up and say what is on my mind and then that makes everyone hate me for awhile, but whatever, i'm tired of censoring my feelings and thoughts for ppl.

so please, just know that i love you guys, and even tho i do not jump to commenting on things, or whatever, that i always find a sec to read it, i always think of you all, i miss you more than you'll ever know, and that every time i think of a memory of you and i it makes me cry cuz i miss you so freaking much it hurts (its true, ask A, he deals with me crying all the time). and another thing...i put pics of A and i on my page all the time. when was the last time you commented on anything on my page?!?!? maybe cuz i'm not in your little world? Seems a little one sided to me. But do you hear me complaining?!?! not till now..in response to your complaint.

and i know it upset you all that i put a pic of me, A and liam as my main pic. but you know, when i was asked to take that down...that hurt me big time...it was a huge slap in my face. nobody seems to think about how that would make me feel. all my friends know he's my nephew...they know he's not mine. and yes, he's yours so you have a say in what can be displayed, but man...i thought you would have been proud that i was showing him off so much...i suppose i was wrong. here's an idea...take a family picture. done. problem solved.

anyway, i've sat here and vented and cried as much as i can right now...so please don't hate me.. .and if you do, well, i'm sorry. i had to get it off my chest. and mom is just as unaware of me writing this as you were, so don't be upset with her either. it's alllll me.

i love you all so very much, and i'm sorry if i've upset you.
h"

(I have shortened the names of people to one initial.)

Part three coming soon.